I really should update this damn thing more, especially since I paid for it. Well, I'm not paying for it anymore, because my paid account ran out and I haven't renewed it.

But Char made me a pretty layout!

I should buy more paid account time, but it doesn't seem to work as an incentive to update.

Mm, I'm listening to Orgy and it makes me think of Meri. Haha.

Don't have much to say, really. My medication stopped working, and I had to go back to the doctor. She increased my dosage and excused me from work for all of next week. I'll be dirt poor, but it'll be nice to have the time off. My doctor says that I have to get out of the house and away from my family during my time off, so hopefully I'll be able to do what she says.

Might spend a lot of time at the gym.

I wish The Killers hadn't released `Mr. Brightside` as a single. I don't like sharing songs that I like with the general public. I'm selfish.

I finally made a new wallpaper for my desktop. It's really bright and colorful, and hopefully it'll help brighten my mood while I am at the computer.

I'm finally getting some ideas for my novel. My goal for this month is to have a complete synopsis finished, so I at least know where I'm going and why. It should be interesting. I'm really excited, so I'll probably spend a lot of time on that this week. Hopefully.

I was talking to Char the other day, and I told her that I think it might make a better movie than a book, and she said she'd help me learn how to write a screenplay. That'd be exciting. I'm still trying to decide, because I don't watch a lot of movies, so I don't know that I have what it takes to make a good one.

I blame Chrissy for my sudden love for hip-hop music.

Take that, rewind it back.

I need a new GJ.

Peace out.

I rented two movies this weekend. One that I'd only heard wonderful things about, and one that I only heard horrible things about: Napolean Dynatmie, and Catwoman, respectivly.

For as much hype as it got, Napolean Dynamite was incredibly disappointing. I got about 35 minutes into it before I simply had to turn it off. I don't know, maybe I didn't "get it," but I just thought it was stupid. And anyone who knows me, knows that I'm not picky when it comes to movies. I liked Joy Ride, for crying out loud!!

("I'd, uh...take off your bra?")

Catwoman, on the other hand, I really enjoyed. I'm a huge Batman fan, and while I lust over Cat/Bat romance, and disagree with their choice to remove that character from her Gotham roots, I wasn't disappointed with the way it turned out. I actually liked it, because Halle was hot, and she totally rocked the outfit and turned me on. It was all good.

Last weekend, I got to hang out with StaceyBear for the first time in FOREVER, and let me tell you what. That girl is just fucking awesome. I love her to death, seriously. I need to hang out with her more.

My anxiety/depression problem went up to an all-time high a couple of weeks ago, and I finally got myself to a doctor, who put me on some good drugs. Yeehaw. They haven't really kicked in yet, I don't think, but I'm sure they will soon. In the mean time, I'm just kind of hanging in there.

I decided to take another year off from school, for many reasons, the most important of which is that I just don't want to rush into anything. It's important to me that, when I go back, I go back for ME, and not for anyone else. I also want to get on my feet financially so that I don't have to worry about that crap while I'm at school. I have nothing to be ashamed of: I have a great job, I'm making good money, and I'm helping support my family. There's nothing wrong with taking some time off.

Things are going a lot better at work. It's getting so that I don't even mind going anymore, and coming in on Saturdays doesn't seem like such a hassle. I think that, once I move out of this house, I'll be able to really move forward in my life. But right now, I'm just stuck here, and it really sucks.

My God, Marcus Schenkenberg is so frickin' hot. Whoo. I wish they'd make these episodes an hour long. How hard could it be to fill an hour? Seriously. AND HOLY CRAP. X-Pac is going to be on there next week!!! Whoa, dude. That's so weird.

Bought the third Gravitation DVD last weekend. <333 Yuki is life. Shuichi is Love. Hiro is Happiness. And K is Sex. That's all there is to it. <3333333333333!!!

All right, I'm out. Hasta.